Everybody is too good to be true....

You know, I am starting to realize that dating really is pretty much all technical these days. You start with messaging someone on an app. Maybe exchange numbers. Start texting each other. Possibly a phone call here and there. Then, you make plans to meet up. Great. But, is the meet-up ever as successful as the texting or messaging?

I guess we can say there is potential. Always potential. Contact with Justin has been minimal. I am understanding because I know he works, and well because I finally just spoke up about what I needed to. Meaning, I finally messaged him after radio silence pretty much and well who knows. "Hey, I'm not going to bother you anymore. I don't know if I did something, or if I didn't match my pics, or if I smelled lol... but I don't want to annoy anyone by continuing to reach out. I just wish you might have told me so I didn't keep reaching out. So, I had a good time, thank you. Good luck!! :).". I read it and read it before sending, so maybe I came off desperate or I don't know. Anyhow, the response was that he has been slammed at work, I'm not bothering him, and I matched my pics and didn't smell. So at least the guys I have been talking with agree on those things.. I don't smell, and I do match my pics. Must be my sucky personality. Who knows.

I paused this entry on the off chance I would hear something. But, we are approaching 11pm. and I haven't heard from Justin at all.

Now, the other day, I decided to do a re-introduction on one of the Facebook dating pages I'm on. So far, I have gotten I think 2 responses. I noted that I was single, and explained what I am looking for and of course, what I'm NOT looking for. I left my DM's open, and I have been having a nice time talking with a guy named Jason. We are close in age, and so far have a bunch of stupid, fun, weird, and cool things in common. He is definitely nice to look at. In fact, I keep saying he is out of my league, but he keeps saying it's opposite. Now, I am trying to keep an open mind here because, why shouldn't I? Aside from the obvious. It's not fair to myself to put every potential suitor into the same category. It's not fair to them either, because I am sure somewhere out there when a man says the right things, he actually says them because he means them.

Update. I have been on a date with Jason. It was very sweet. He looked exactly like his picture. He was romantic. He was kind. He was respectful, and attentive. I got flowers. I know that seems so minimal to people, but as someone who ONLY used to get flowers from a man if he did something wrong, this was pretty big for me. He made sure I got to my car, and then made sure to check in and make sure I made it home safely since it is Michigan, and the weather is shit. Although, I suspect even if it was 70 and sunny, he would still have checked in to make sure I was safe.

I don't know, I guess this is going to be a test of my patience. I guess the problem I have is that the men I have dated put off these vibes that make me feel as if they are more interested than they actually are. How do they pull off the way they look at you? I mean when I was seeing Andy, he always looked at me like I was the prettiest woman he had ever seen. It made me blush the way he looked at me. And that's part of what really sucks a lot of the time. I don't get looked at that way very often, if at all. So, it felt really nice.

I assume most men, maybe most people won't even read these, but, if one person does and it helps them, then maybe it's not so bad to share.

I will update in my next post about the Jason date, and the day after.