And 1 and 2 and you know what to do

Alright, here we are. Feeling dumb again. Talked up, given attention, and made to believe I was going to smile again. Instead, I am crying about it on a blog. I suppose this is why so many people get on that whole "you'll find someone when you aren't looking" bullshit train. What is the requirement these days for finding love? How do we go about finding ONE person to spend our time with? Also, why is it so hard to talk about? Any dating site makes it fairly easy to either; talk about yourself, or describe what you're looking for. Saying "this is hard" or "I don't like talking about myself" is kind of a bitch move don't you think? I mean, what is the point of making a profile if you don't talk about yourself a little? How do I know if we might be a match if you don't talk about what you're looking for? It really isn't as hard as some people make it.

I am looking for a gentleman. Someone between the ages of 38 and 55. Must enjoy laughing, and being silly. I am a 45 year old single mom/grandma. My kids live at home with me by choice. I am getting back out in the world after being away for just a little bit. My youngest is about to graduate, so I would like to do some traveling. Hopefully with someone that likes at least some of the same things as me... relaxing by a fire, music, 420, singing, dancing, OR relaxing at home on the couch watching a movie, going to dinner, or having a few drinks. I am pretty versatile, and am open to exploring new things. If you ask me what I do for fun, my answer is the same right now, and that's I don't know. I am re-learning what I enjoy for fun. I was a care-taker for a long time, so I wasn't able to enjoy things as much. So, I am open to exploring. I would like to find someone honest. Someone that is looking for long term. I am not here for a FWB, a hook-up, or a one night stand. Those things can be found anywhere and that's just not me. I am not picky about looks, I am more into what you are like in person. What is your personality? Is your music list as crazy as mine? If you think you would like to know more, and that we may be compatible, please send me a message.

That's not so hard is it? At this point, my inbox will blow up, and I can start to potentially weed out anyone that doesn't have the same interests as me. Meaning, anyone that begins the conversation with WYD or Yo. We can't be this age and still not know how to begin a conversation with "Hi", "Hello", or "Hiya". Have we just gotten to the point that we are far too lazy to convey an actual conversation, or do we just not care anymore? I find (at least on dating sites) that the men I have come across are basically... well, full of shit! One guy I met was based on a match quiz percentage. You match based on the likes and questions you answer. I have said I cannot live with someone that is overly messy. The person I matched with said the same, but when I visited his home, it was pretty dirty. Same guy said he smoked weed, he doesn't. Turns out he likes the smell but smoking it makes him paranoid. Paranoid says the alcoholic. Yes, please insert an eyeroll here. I know those seem minor, but really that's just tip of the ice-berg stuff. Also, if you can lie about something so minor so easily, who knows what you're willing to lie about. Sorry but that comes with the territory.

Sadly, as a woman, I have had to download a couple apps so that I can find out if any man I decide to talk to isn't married, abusive, or just a walking red flag. A big problem isn't just single men. Married men... what the fuck is your issue??? Get a damn divorce. How many of you REALLY believe that your wife is ok with you fucking a side piece? Women, how many of you ARE ok with your man fucking a side piece? I have heard very rare situations where this happens. I am genuinely curious about this. I like sex personally, so is it that you don't? Is sex not that important? Or is it so important that we just want and or need to do it with anyone that is willing to have do it with us? Yes I know there is the obligatory warnings regarding STD's or STI's (I am not sure how we refer to them anymore honestly) because it is far too common nowadays for these types of things to happen. I guess maybe this is where communication is HUGE! I am not one to say hey, let's discuss our "list" because I don't believe it is something we have to share. The number at least. I do believe in discussing other things; when was the last time you had any STD/STI testing? Do you get testing regularly? Are you a faithful partner, and if so, how long into dating a person do you become fully faithful? So many questions, so little time. Dating is for suckers! I feel as though the way things are going, I should just give up the notion that anyone wants to actually date anymore. Who knows, maybe I'll switch up my Tinder and just become someone looking for a friend with benefits.